Full-Blown Agony: My Fight Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden pain sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by quick jolts, like electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with intense discomfort behind a single eye that persists up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, excruciating agony around one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things worse. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across history. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing records propose bizarre treatments for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode eased.

National guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout dictates the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Megan Peterson
Megan Peterson

A sports scientist and coach with over 15 years of experience in elite athletic performance and training methodologies.